What if I'm dying?
So I have had a large amount of time to think since being sick a lot so bear with all my revelations!
As I was wondering and worrying about what my test results might reveal, of course I wandered down the path of "What if it's something really bad & I'm dying?" My first thought was of my kids & what they would do without me. Then I sort of mind slapped myself & thought, what am I sating! Do I want to stick around in this body forever? Is my whole goal as a Christian to just see my kids grow up? Isn't God the keeper of all my days? Then I realized a few things. One, we are all dying! Hate to break it to you sheltered folks but we all have a terminal illness called life! Two, Heaven is where I would much rather be. It's not that I don't want to watch my kids grow up or hold my grandchildren someday, but if given the choice between pain, stress, heartache, & struggles or eternal peace & joy, who wouldn't chose peace & joy!?? I realized that my trust in God & His plans for me allows me the freedom to NOT worry about whether I live or die tomorrow. If the Lord says my work is through, then yay, I get to go home. If the Lord says I am to remain on this earth a little while longer, then yay I have more work to do for the Kingdom. Either way, I'm pretty much set. Then suddenly, I didn't care what my test results said. I suddendly didn't care if the news was bad. A huge weight lifted off of me knowing I didn't have to worry about it, because whatever happened, it was part of the plan. Either way there was something great to look forward to! I know not everyone views life as being so disposable because I used to not think that way either. But the more I understand about God the more I understand why Paul called this body a "tent". That's all it is. This life was never designed to last forever, it was never meant for permanent dwelling, it's temporary housing for our souls while we finish our work until we go home to enjoy eternal rest. I love my life that God has given me, but no enough to make me choose it over eternal life with Christ!
Sometimes we become to near sighted & too attached to this earthly body & we forget what lay just beyond the grave. Death is not the end for Christians, it is the wonderful new begining!
As I was wondering and worrying about what my test results might reveal, of course I wandered down the path of "What if it's something really bad & I'm dying?" My first thought was of my kids & what they would do without me. Then I sort of mind slapped myself & thought, what am I sating! Do I want to stick around in this body forever? Is my whole goal as a Christian to just see my kids grow up? Isn't God the keeper of all my days? Then I realized a few things. One, we are all dying! Hate to break it to you sheltered folks but we all have a terminal illness called life! Two, Heaven is where I would much rather be. It's not that I don't want to watch my kids grow up or hold my grandchildren someday, but if given the choice between pain, stress, heartache, & struggles or eternal peace & joy, who wouldn't chose peace & joy!?? I realized that my trust in God & His plans for me allows me the freedom to NOT worry about whether I live or die tomorrow. If the Lord says my work is through, then yay, I get to go home. If the Lord says I am to remain on this earth a little while longer, then yay I have more work to do for the Kingdom. Either way, I'm pretty much set. Then suddenly, I didn't care what my test results said. I suddendly didn't care if the news was bad. A huge weight lifted off of me knowing I didn't have to worry about it, because whatever happened, it was part of the plan. Either way there was something great to look forward to! I know not everyone views life as being so disposable because I used to not think that way either. But the more I understand about God the more I understand why Paul called this body a "tent". That's all it is. This life was never designed to last forever, it was never meant for permanent dwelling, it's temporary housing for our souls while we finish our work until we go home to enjoy eternal rest. I love my life that God has given me, but no enough to make me choose it over eternal life with Christ!
Sometimes we become to near sighted & too attached to this earthly body & we forget what lay just beyond the grave. Death is not the end for Christians, it is the wonderful new begining!
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