Anger to ELATION

So I got in the car to go to the doc & I put in my comfort music. I found myself suddenly crying. Not crying over the hurt & anger but crying because I realized how much God loves me & how I was actually angry with Him. I found myself telling God how sorry I was for being angry & not trusting Him. And then all I could say was "God I want you. I want you". What happened next is amazing. Suddenly I felt the burden lifted off of me & I saw myself letting go of my dad. It was like God was telling me to let it go, it's His burden not mine. I suddenly saw all of this could actually work to make my life into a glorious example of the peace & hope that comes from living in Christ. No matter what hurt I may face, no one can ever hurt me, not even my dad, beyond what my Father can heal. Just like that it was over. I'm not angry, I have peace. I'm not discouraged, I have hope. I'm not abandoned, I am deeply loved. I'm not alone, I'm surrounded. Now I'm crying but crying in joy and crying in great relief from that burden I tried to carry! "Forgive and forget, but don't forget why you're here". That's what God reminded me in the car. I can breath again and the air is so sweet. I want to shout from the mountains that my God and yours is so so GREAT!
Oh & I realized that being forever connected to him biologically means that no matter what he does, he will always have at least one Christian petitioning God on hos behalf and there is nothing satan can do about that. So ha! Who has the last laugh now satan? Hahahaha!