Fostering Throwback: Revelations part 2
REVELATIONS Part 2
Continued from last Saturday...
The second thing I realized gave me a completely new perspective on what we are doing. I realized that out of all the families that could have helped, God chose us to care for these children. We were chosen, it was no coincidence. Now I don't look at us & think we are such great people or parents & that's why we were chosen. I have no idea why God chose us, but He did. I feel honored beyond words to know that God picked us to carry out His will for these children. I am confident it is not because of our abilities, rather it is His abilities through us that even make this possible. What I thought was a weakness, may be my greatest strength. Every day begins the same for me. I get out of bed so, so tired & say "God, I can't make it through this day if You don't help me. You are going to have to give me the strength or I won't make it." And He does, every single day. I thought I was terribly weak for waking up every day feeling this way, but I realize now that I'm starting my day off with the understanding that I can't do this, only God can. Maybe that's why God revealed this to me, so I will stop beating myself up & start realizing the greatness of my "weakness". I'm usually the type of person who gives all I have & does all I can, simply because I can. If I was not so weak, I might think I was able to do all of this because I was motivated or just a good person or dedicated. I know none of that is true because of the way I feel every morning when I wake up & say that prayer & then how He gets me through each day. I have received many uplifting compliments over the months & I must admit, they make me uneasy. Those compliments refer to me & my character & something I have done when really I have done nothing. God has supplied the courage, the wisdom, the energy, the insight, & all of our needs. I have only cried out in desperation & said "God I can't do this! You have to do this!" I wish I could name off great things I've done because that would boost my ego a little, but I can't. None of this has been me. I was called & so I go.
To look at each hard, tiring day through the lens of knowing that God picked me for this is very sobering. I used to feel like I was in this position because I was being taken advantage of, but now I realize I'm here because God wanted me to be here. Is it still hard? Of course it is! Have you read one single story in the Bible where a person was called by God to do something & it was easy? Every account I read let's me know that doing God's will is going to be hard. We live in a world over run with evil, when we start working for the Kingdom we begin working against that evil. That's not just tough, that's war! But what God has shown us both in the Bible & in my own life, is that we never do it alone unless we choose to. He PROMISES to supply our EVERY need. He is behind us, beside us, & before us. He has called on me to do this thing, but He spent months preparing me for it & He has been supplying me the entire time. Now when I look at these kids, & my own kids too, I see my purpose, my calling. I feel honored, I feel privileged, I feel a big "wow" inside when I think that God chose me out of everyone else to do this. I may look in the mirror & still not know why, but He did & that's what matters. I don't just get to help these kids, I get to serve my God, I get to use my talents, I get to live a life of purpose. Wow is all I can say.
To look at each hard, tiring day through the lens of knowing that God picked me for this is very sobering. I used to feel like I was in this position because I was being taken advantage of, but now I realize I'm here because God wanted me to be here. Is it still hard? Of course it is! Have you read one single story in the Bible where a person was called by God to do something & it was easy? Every account I read let's me know that doing God's will is going to be hard. We live in a world over run with evil, when we start working for the Kingdom we begin working against that evil. That's not just tough, that's war! But what God has shown us both in the Bible & in my own life, is that we never do it alone unless we choose to. He PROMISES to supply our EVERY need. He is behind us, beside us, & before us. He has called on me to do this thing, but He spent months preparing me for it & He has been supplying me the entire time. Now when I look at these kids, & my own kids too, I see my purpose, my calling. I feel honored, I feel privileged, I feel a big "wow" inside when I think that God chose me out of everyone else to do this. I may look in the mirror & still not know why, but He did & that's what matters. I don't just get to help these kids, I get to serve my God, I get to use my talents, I get to live a life of purpose. Wow is all I can say.
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