Tomorrow Has Come Today

 For God, who said, “Light shall shine out of darkness,” is the One who has shone in our hearts to give the Light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.2 Corinthians 4:6 NASB

I did not want to leave Wednesday's post as the last thing on peoples' minds about foster care. It was dreary and it was sad and yes, foster care most definitely can be both. However, God is faithful as I also said. Despair does not mean the loss of hope and faith. David did not hide in caves because he felt God had abandoned him. In fact, all of Psalms finds him crying out to God, his refuge, and Savior. It's okay to not be okay as long as when the night falls and the storm rages that you know where your help comes from. When Peter left the boat, He didn't head for shore, He went straight for the ONE who controlled the wind and waves.
Wednesday, the clouds covered the sun temporarily in our home and I took shelter while crying out to my Savior. I feel it is important to share these real and raw moments. Too many times we guard our weaknesses and our low points for fear of judgments. We don't want others to know we are not Pinterest perfect. Christians cry. Disciples despair. It happens all the time. We cannot carry each other's burdens or surround each other if we are not being honest and open. I am most guilty of covering my vulnerabilities in a cloak of smiles that tell others that I'm stronger than I truly am. It gives others the impression that I am strong and that I am put together when I am most certainly not. What I have is a hope and a faith that goes beyond all the darkness of this world. There is not an evil, there is not a storm that can take that away. When it wrecks my ship against the rocks, my LORD calls me to walk on the waves. That's just how we roll.

For we do not preach ourselves but Christ Jesus as Lord, and ourselves as your bond-servants for Jesus’ sake. 2 Cor 4:5

As Paul said, "the love of Christ controls us" (2 Cor 5:14) and that's what compels us through raging storms and explosive tears, through good times and bad times.  I did not get up out of my floor because I was tired of kneeling. I did not pick myself up because my internal strength returned. If I were left to my own devices I would have given up long ago. The truth is, this life is too tough for me alone. It is by the grace of God that I have been called to this life and ministry and it is by His strength alone that tomorrow has come today and strength has returned. I do not do this life for me. I do not do this life simply because I love children. I do this life because I am compelled by the love of Christ which controls me in the most excellent way. I love this life because I love God with all that is in me and I love His people as my people. That's just the way it is.

Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were making an appeal through us; 2 Cor 5:20a

 He's breaking us and remaking us in His perfect image. I am a mom. I am wife. I am a foster mom and an ambassador of Jesus Christ. I am the #mobmomma and this is real life people.